my celfone stopped making alert sounds for a month now.. when in the recent past it used to beep almost every minute. each beep can either give me a good laugh, a smirk, a frown, a sigh, goosebumps, a heart rate of 200 beats per minute! each beep has always been important to me no matter if it’s only ‘ok’, thanks ;), u, cu, or tc since these came from persons i luv luv and ms ms gd gd gd and care so much about.
the same beeps made my phone bills shoot up to an average of 3k a month for several years. practically, it’s a bad and unwise habit since I don’t use it for business. looking closer though it implies that i value friendship and family ties more than anything else. it is an investment for something intangible. (nice try) still looks economically ugly.
ok. so i shifted to prepaid subscription as i had no choice since my line got barred eternally! this new no. is only known to less than 20 persons. pardon me if i don’t reply instantly. obviously, I am suffering from this no-load-situation not because of any superb reasons but it’s always that i’m too lazy to go to these loading stations where each time i don’t know how much to load. this is truly an ordeal for me. anyhow, i have convinced myself that because of this no one sends thoughts to me anymore except maybe for a couple of beeps each week from alicia and pawa (which I always love reading and rereading).
i am a very passionate person when it comes to relationships that’s why my system requires constant sharing of thoughts and circumstances, even trivial uns. doubly, it real-ly makes this silence sadder. through all these i was able to discover my loyal texters. they stay unfailingly with me the moment i wake up, when i eat, and whenever. tenks 2346, 2007, 2318, 2870 for always being there to disturb the deafening silence.
gods and goddesses, send me somebody who is tangible and real and could keep up with me. never felt so alone. i say, i’ve seen better days. -j
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